[nekkidhillbilly]

well I realize a lot of that. I realized dnw ex wife back. I don't get emotional over her anymore. I realize I jumped into this relationship when looking for a friend not even sexual or romantic. wasn't trying to. im taking a little break this weekend to see if im just getting overwhelmed some or I really don't want to be with her. ive never walked away from a woman so i have that fear too. i think i do a lot of things out of fear. i shouldn't have married my wife but i did. i made a lot of mistakes and i regret it but its in the past and I learned I don't need that shit in my life. im don't want to get into another relationship right now just want to be her friend more than just hello every once in a while if that makes sense.